Are you seeing clearly?

For the greater portion of my life (13 years of 25), I have been subject to a health problem with my vision. They are finally coming out with the technology to halt the progression of the disease. It really has been a bummer to me over the years. As I look back (figuratively speaking of course, otherwise my perspective would be obscure), I see that many things I would have enjoyed were not so enjoyable, or even things that I would have tried altogether, I didn't do. I tried out for baseball my junior year. I had always been a good baseball player growing up. In six grade I only struck out one time the whole season. I played third base, and center field that year. As an outfielder it was important to see well and gage the ball's distance. I noticed my junior year, that despite my athletic ability being greatly better, I was not a better baseball player than I was in six grade. I had lost my ability to gage a deep fly ball. In the batter's box I was unable to keep my eyes on the ball until connecting with the bat. It seemed hit and miss, where as I was used to just hitting. the saddening thing about it was My coach was not throwing any significant pitches. they were right down the middle and maybe 55 MPH tops. Those were pitches I should have been hitting every time. 

I think above all I have come across the solution in a time when the problem has escalated more than controllable. Not control in a physical level, but financially. I can't do it right now though I really want to. I have school to pay for, I have regular living bills to pay for, I'm tryin to pay off the student loans from last years waste of time on the Utah stint. Is there much more important than personal health? There are some more important things, but also, It's difficult to do those things without the health you need.

I am not a professional blogger

Seems that since the beginning of this blog business, I was never completely set on the whole idea. It's almost like conforming to this grand blogging scheme. I wonder who the mastermind behind it all is. Anyway I don't really have that question on the forefront of my mind. That particular question would be one a sci-fi minded person might ask in amazement of the cyber world. I just know there are these things called blogs, people write whatever they want, and nobody really reads it later. blogs, facebook, myspace, twitter... when does the world turn back into hopscotch, riding bicycles, playing wall ball, or four square, simple summer BBQ's and rodeos, cow pies and fire flies, country swing, and wedding rings, and a walk to the dairy queen for the discontinued but best blizzard ever, the nerd blizzard. It just seems that everything that was ever any good in life was simple to begin with, and remained simple in the end. Girls chased the boys, then later the boys chased the girls. Nobody was ever just content. there was always something to do to improve the quality of life, but always within the boundaries of honesty and hard work.